So October was a complete bust. There was something about the start of this month that just kinda felt off? The whole shit with twitter was first nail in the coffin. I've been struggling to gain any growth on that site since I came back in April. Literally no new eyes or help from a friend was able to help me out of the pit, straight up completely shadow banned. The worst thing is I know I was not alone. So with the recent policy change I decided it was too much stress worrying about statistics on a dying site and I've locked the account down and no longer plan on using it. It will remain an archive because it was where I began and still has some older stuff I no longer have on my PC.
Second nail for this month was just life. Been busy at my job that basically demanded longer days, not complaining, just tired. Coupled with family health crisis, I didn't have much in me to sit down and stare at Blender for hours. It's also been a drain on inspiration, I don't know how many times I booted up what was going to be this month's first animation I kept changing it. I just decided last week it was a waste to try and salvage something that kept ending up getting changed. So if it wasn't obvious there isn't going to be an animation for this month. I'll link last year's in this post but that's about it for this month.
So for November I'm not worrying about NNN. I don't really care at this point about chasing trends. I can barely keep focused on this stuff as is, given life surrounding me in general. My plan is to finally finish Rose's upgrade. After that I will be revisiting my first animation and remaking it with the new models. I feel like given my current lack of any inspiration, revisiting old stuff maybe what I need. Opening up some-kind of tip jar would be able to take a load off so I can begin to transition to this full time, but as I keep looking for reasonable sites/services I keep getting cold feet. Expect something by mid November, an update at the least.

Nothing much for this week. Started the next animation, but that required updating Iris to the newer rig, which is now done. It sucks, but just a bit less than before. Rose's model is finally retopologized fully, I only had to redo the face after I shrink-wrapped it all to her neck and hit apply...
Of the poll that I ran for tutorials only 8 people really answered. It was almost unanimous with people wanting more beginner stuff first. I don't see an issue with it and was probably going to start from the ground up anyway. Late November is the deadline I will set for it. I'd aim for sooner but things just get busier this time of year, I'm afraid I might only have one animation this month :[
Things aside, this site will probably be on the back burner for now, only updates for the foreseeable future. I'd love to keep experimenting with HTML, but time demands my attention return to Blender.

An update for this week. Uploaded another animation, not too thrilled with it but I didn't want it to become another abandoned piece. In the meantime, I'm back to working on Rose's new model. I had to drop it to get the animation out on time, lot of good that did me. So for this month I'm gonna try to reel in the length of the next few, aiming for like 5-10 second quickies. I'm also not too thrilled with how Twitter/X has been acting. Before my 'hiatus' I actually felt like I was getting somewhere, it's been absolutely 0 growth since I came back. I could understand it if everyone around me was stagnating but it seems more likely I am being fucked over by the algo. Like do you bother with hashtags anymore, is NSFW straight up nuked, or have I just shadow banned????
As demoralizing as having all the momentum I had before now suddenly gone, at least New-Grounds has remained a constant. Its slow, and riddled with tough critics, but it still remains a source of motivation. Itaku too has been keeping my hopes up, but I've noticed its more or less the same issues, minus the comments (so far). I always will reiterate, that I do appreciate everyone who does follow/likes/comments on my stuff. I'm not one to respond and I'm still trying to concur the fear of being this open with smut, I do see and appreciate everything.
In other news I've been slowly adding to the site, a prototype layout for the tutorials page. I'm thinking of possibly splitting each tutorial into chapters, instead of one large page. Something about segmenting the information into small steps instead of one constant flow is easier to digest in my opinion. I do plan on beginning the first one at the end of this month, this is going to be a huge undertaking given that I have to cover all my bases on what I've learned and somehow present that as if I'm approaching these tutorials like I never used 3D modeling software before. Easier said than done, but I do truly believe that this information should be more widely available, so I will never pay wall tutorials or anything education related, the software is open source and so should the information.
That being said, I do need eat... and move out. I don't know when I'll be up and running with Sub Star. Frankly I'm dealing with bank issues, but once that is cleared up, I'll be back on that process. So earliest I would say to expect the first tutorial would be the end of November, and after that probably a new one every 1-2 months.

Wow Look, a new layout. HTML has changed since my last attempt at a website... in 2020. I had a better idea of this website, being all 3D and stuff. Probably not gonna happen for a long time since this already has eaten up animating time. Like not having to edit the home file itself to make blog posts and making the website do it from a text file. For now this works. By the way, you can now actually access my socials through the little icon at the top. My warning to you is it does contain FETISH animations ranging from expansion to chicks with hogs, if its not your thing don't bother.
At some-point in the future, I do plan to have beginner tutorials for people who want to approach blender for NSFW work, specifically creating your own stuff from scratch. There literally isn't anything relating to NSFW with blender and the communities or posts I do come across require Discord 🤮 or are outdated. It's also not my cup of tea to just start pulling assets from stores, its not what I set out to do with 3D modeling. Like I legit have a problem with wanting to make everything by myself. It hasn't been easy with having basically a crash course in 3D modeling from college in Maya, to then switching to Blender afterwards when the pandemic hit. It has been a fucking uphill battle more with myself than with blender, but the fact I feel like i need my own site to host a copyright notice is a clear sign that its gotten to the point it's progressed.
So I guess to keep it simple, the whole plan of this site will be updates on projects, tutorials, and eventually game dev stuff. Yes I do mean it for real, it was my major so it would feel like a waste if I didn't attempt to make a smut filled game. I do plan to open a SubStar soon (sometime before the end of the year), while I do appreciate the job I currently have, the burden of my seemingly undiagnosable intestinal disease is making it real hard to pick things up and put them back down again. So for the time being, it will still only be 1-2 animations a month while I try to standardize my rigs and bring old OC's in to my new standard, and get around to finally putting together a little world for the first game.

Nothing here yet, working slowly on creating some kind of format for blog posts/tutorials and to inevitably post game dev updates
If you somehow found this through browsing Neocities, congrats, there is only my copyright notice. Look for my other socials if your morbid curiosity is getting the better of you.